On June 24, 2012 my 4-year-old son Jax passed away in a drowning accident. The first-born of my wife and I, Jax was our world. He is survived by myself, my wife and our now 2-year-old twins, Gray and Ellie. This site is about my life since that day. From grief recovery, marriage issues or thoughts of self-harm to playing with my twins, date nights with the wife or sipping scotch while watching baseball on a cool So Cal evening, this is my new life. I didn’t ask for it, but it’s what it is. It’s me, trying to smile through tears.